I’m down 3 lbs from when I last weighed myself. I am now 220 lbs. My goal is 187, so I still have 33 lbs to go by 10/23. Last night, I was lying in bed, and I decided that I want to look into cutting down on my drinking. I mentioned this in a previous post, but I quickly have five drinks when I go out on the weekend. I’m looking at ten drinks and probably close to 2,000 calories between just Friday and Saturday night. I’m not saying that I’m going to give up drinking altogether. I have the beach coming up along with my bachelor party and my wedding, but I want to save drinking for special occasions instead of three times a week. I started listening to an audiobook about drinking called This Naked Mind, and I will continue to update my progress throughout my blogging. I really don’t like that I have to rely on drinking to have a good time. Whether it’s a concert or a social event, I always reach for a drink, and it really is a crutch. I like being active and making the most of my day. When I drink, I wake up the following day not feeling great, and I’m done wasting my weekends by sleeping in.
Another thing that came to me last night was that I want to better influence my relationship with Nicole. There are so many improvements that I can make in my own life, and I want to start tackling those things and see what happens. I’m going to clean up my diet. My fiancee and I went shopping the other day and made excellent food decisions—a lot of grilled chicken and veggies. We got ingredients to cook dinner together Friday instead of going out to eat and spending a bunch of money. That is something we really need to cut out. We spend so much money going out to eat, and that’s all I spend my “spending money” on. I never feel like I can buy myself nice clothes or clothes to work out in, but I have no problem spending $40, just on myself, for dinner. The summer is almost here, and I want to spend my money on experiences and outside activities instead of just drinking beer at the same place every week. I know that there is a better version of myself buried somewhere deep inside of me.
Another thing that I want to work on is just being cleaner. Stop leaving clothes on the floor and the kitchen a mess. I am in such a rush to get stuff done that I leave a trail of destruction behind me. I try to cram so many things into my day, and I don’t give myself enough time to complete those things. For example, cooking dinner isn’t just cooking. I need to leave myself enough time to cook, eat, and clean up. I’m happy that I’m at least aware of these things. I know that there’s room for improvement in my life. If I can’t keep my life together, why would I feel like I can help others get their life together or run my own business? I need to start being strict with myself and making sacrifices to get what I want. I feel like it’s time to fish or cut bait. I’m 30 years old. I’m not a kid, and it’s time to get my shit together. Speaking of getting my shit together, I had a virtual appointment with my therapist today. I didn’t learn too much about him since he got to know me, but I feel good about it. My fiancee mentioned that I was smiling afterward. I’m not really a solemn type of person, but it was nice getting that external validation.
The last thing that I want to work on is complaining. I am a pretty positive person when it comes to my future and things working out for me, but I get easily irritated. People and events are constantly getting on my nerves. I can’t imagine that I’m fun to be around when I’m acting like this. Whether it’s getting cut off in traffic or waiting a long time for our food when we’re out to eat, I will let it be known that I’m bothered. Since I am a positive person, it kills me that complaining can impact the message I’m trying to send. As I get older, I realize that every interaction we have with people impacts the way they see us and our “brand”. I don’t mean from a social media or “I hope people like me” mentality, but if we want to be successful, we have to link up and be around other successful people. Successful people don’t want to be around people who are constantly complaining or being negative. I want to attract the right people to me and keep them in my life. As they say like attracts like.
